Her Secret

                              “Her Secret”

There’s a reason why you barely hear from her and seldom see her online.
The truth is she’s miserable and suffering, even though she says she’s fine.
She stays in chronic pain, and that’s more pain than most will ever know.
When she wakes in the morning there’s so much pain and stiffness, she can barely make herself go.
She must push to go on, no matter how badly she may feel.
Although she chooses to not express it, her aches and pains are very real.
It’s true she was raised to never complain, and she knows Mama was right when she said people don’t understand.
She’ll never know why there’s so much suffering and why her pain is so grand.
To look at her you’d have no idea that she doesn’t sleep very well.
The truth is every night she lays her head down to sleep, is a living hell.
They first diagnosed her with Fibromyalgia and Chronic fatigue syndrome at age 22.
Next came the lupus diagnosis, which makes her feel like she constantly has the flu.
Is it a coincidence that she ended up with all the same diseases Mama had?
There’s a reason she died at 58, you know. Her health was undeniably bad.
She’s got to be healthy in order to live much longer.
She realizes that no matter what, she has to push to be stronger.
Even though Mama’s gone, she wants more than anything to make her proud.
She will fight these illnesses, and come out from underneath this hovering dark cloud.
So now you know just a few things that she goes through.
These are the reasons why she may not seem herself, or why she may even appear blue.
It’s true she definitely has things in her past that are full of regret.
Telling you this is not one of them, for now you know her secret.

Written by: Samantha Britt (Sassy Sammi)
On 08/14/15.
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Do You Love Me Enough?

                “Do You Love Me Enough?”

I know you say you love me, but do you love me enough?!
In real relationships, the waters aren’t always smooth sailing, they will also be rough.
It doesn’t matter how hard it may get, as long as we have each other, we can get through anything together.
It can be sunny blue skies, or dark and stormy weather.
We have that unique special kind of love, that people only dream about.
With all that we’ve already been through, how can you have any doubt?!
I keep praying that God will open your eyes, before it’s too late.
You’re already more like a husband to me, not just someone I date.
I know we’re hurting our Heavenly Father, living in sin, day after day.
It hurts my heart, because deep down you know there’s a better way.
You’re 50, have never been close to being married, and your life is passing you by.
Don’t you want to experience all that God has in store for you, before you die?!
These are the questions that keep me up late at night, actually every night, to be exact.
I’m showing you my true feelings, that you know it’s the only right thing to do, as a matter of fact.
The truth is, writing this has upset me so, I’m going to have to take a little break.
The one thing you should know about me, is that I refuse to be fake.
If you’re telling the truth, you know, what you see is what you get with me.
It’s plain and simple. You either want me as your wife, or you don’t Bradley.
You can stop stringing me along now. My heart’s already too wrapped up in all of this.
It’s come down to, either take me as I am or watch me go as I give you a goodbye kiss.

Written by: Samantha Britt (Sassy Sammi)
On 08/12/15.
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The Woman You Don’t See

                  “The Woman You Don’t See”

No one ever saw her broken heart. They were too busy staring at her unique but beautiful smile.
To look at her, you’d think she has it all together.
No one realizes to be in her shoes, you’d fall the first mile.
Those eyes, somewhere between cognac and honey, hold more heartache and pain, than anyone could possibly know.
At least now she knows it’s true, you really do reap what you sow.
Deep down she wonders what she did wrong, that caused her to lose so much.
Maybe it’s the fact that she’s a little crazy. Perhaps if someone tested her for it, they would see, that she may have just a touch.
All she ever wanted was to be the best wife and mother ever.
She knew it could be possible, if they could all just stay together.
She soon found out though, that it wasn’t meant to be.
She would have to suffer in silence, to make sure no one could ever see.
She would be forced to walk that road of bitter loneliness alone.
She had to keep that part of her hidden away, like when a dog burries a bone.
Yes, she would have to keep her eyes straight ahead.
She must remember and study, all of the scriptures she’s read.
No one knows how, but with everything she’s been through, she hasn’t lost her faith yet.
She believes it’s possible that her future husband, is someone she hasn’t even met.
Until then, she’ll keep those eyes on the prize, and that head held high.
She’s going to make something of herself, even if it’s the last thing she ever does.
She’ll make a list if she has to, to make sure she never becomes who she once was.

Written by: Samantha Britt (Sassy Sammi)
On 07/25/15.
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Spread Joy, Love and Peace

“Spread Joy, Love and Peace”

You never know the struggles someone else may be going through.

They may have problems at home, health issues, or even bills they can’t pay, that are past due.

I was raised to always be kind to every single person I meet.

You know you can offer them an empty hand, or even an available empty seat.

Don’t ever think there’s nothing you can do to help them out.

You can lend them an ear, a shoulder to cry on, or just let them vent and pout.

We all have that something good in us that we can use to help people in need.

 I love that feeling you get in your heart, when you do a good deed.

I believe wholeheartedly that what God has blessed us with, we should share.

After all some people just need for you to stick around and show them you care.

Sometimes a smile will even make someone feel better.

You can write them a poem, a prayer or a sweet letter. 

It may help to remember how it felt, when you had no one.

When you feel that bitter loneliness, you know it’s hard to be happy, let alone have any fun.

So keep in mind as you go about your daily life, spread joy, love and peace.

If you do the blessings you receive now, will multiply and always increase.

Written by: Samantha Britt (Sassy Sammi) on 08/05/15

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What Will I Say?

So you think I’ll say yes, after putting me through your seven year test?
Who’s to say I’m not tired of waiting for you?
Why couldn’t you have chased after me? Now that would be something brand new.
Don’t think I deserve to be treated like a queen?
Obviously, the answer is no, or I would already be wearing your ring.
No, you just plan on living the married life with me, day after day, night after night, week after week, month after month and year after year.
I don’t want to live in sin anymore. What’s the matter with you, can’t you hear?
You know this has been bothering me for a long time now.
You thought I would just ignore it? I’m curious as to how?
The sad truth is, I feel like the man, instead of the other way around.
I am anything but the masculine type, I have recently found.
Don’t think I deserve to be treated like the lady that I am?
You must realize that you’re forcing me into quite a jam.
Seriously, why should I continue putting my heart out on a limb?
We’ve been living together for 7 years, it’s not like we would be marrying each other on a whim.
For the record, you’ve made me feel like I’m not good enough for you.
Like I’ll never be, no matter what I do.
They say that all men go after what they want.
That if they don’t, they don’t really want you. Is that what you’ve been trying to flaunt?
Why didn’t you just come out and tell me the truth? It sure would have saved me a lot of heartache.
I’m gonna use your phrase here, why did you have to do this to me, “for Pete’s sake“?

Written by: Samantha Britt (Sassy Sammi)
On 07/29/15.
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The Woman You Don’t See

No one ever saw her broken heart. They were too busy staring at her unique but beautiful smile.
To look at her, you’d think she has it all together.
No one realizes to be in her shoes, you’d fall the first mile.
Those eyes, somewhere between cognac and honey, hold more heartache and pain, than anyone could possibly know.
At least now she knows it’s true, you really do reap what you sew.
Deep down she wonders what she did wrong, that caused her to lose so much.
Maybe it’s the fact that she’s a little crazy. Perhaps if someone tested her for it, they would see, that she may have just a touch.
All she ever wanted was to be the best wife and mother ever.
She knew it could be possible, if they could all just stay together.
She soon found out though, that it wasn’t meant to be.
She would have to suffer in silence, to make sure no one could ever see.
She would be forced to walk that road of bitter loneliness alone.
She had to keep that part of her hidden away, like when a dog buries a bone.
Yes, she would have to keep her eyes straight ahead.
She must remember and study, all of the scriptures she’s read.
No one knows how, but with everything she’s been through, she hasn’t lost her faith yet.
She believes it’s possible that her future husband, is someone she hasn’t even met.
Until then, she’ll keep those eyes on the prize, and that head held high.
She’s going to make something of herself, even if it’s the last thing she ever does.
She’ll make a list if she has to, to make sure she never becomes who she once was.

Written by: Samantha Britt (Sassy Sammi)
On 07/25/15.
All Copyrights Reserved.

What I’ve Been Shown

      Well folks, I promise you, I had every intention of posting all of my poems and eroticas on here, up until last night, that is. I was in the process of typing a 691 word erotica, that I was planning on publishing on here. It literally only lacked a few seconds from being published. When all of a sudden, out of nowhere, there was an unexpected black out, that caused me to lose all of my hard work! Needless to say, I was devastated! I couldn’t for the life of my fathom why every time I planned to post an erotica, something would happen to prevent it from posing. Let me take a moment to mention that I had tried at least 6 times, to no avail.

       Naturally, I hit my knees as soon as this happened. I had to ask my heavenly Father why this was happening, repeatedly, to me. He told me, just as plainly as you can hear anyone speak to you, “Go get your bible my child, and start reading and studying Revelation Chapter 3”. So I did exactly as He instructed me to do…just as a child, listening and obeying her father, would.

      This is what my dear, sweet Jesus showed me: Revelation 3:8, 15, 16, 19-21    8) “I know thy works: behold I have set before thee an open door, and no man can shut it, for thou hast a little strength, and hast kept my word, and hast not denied my name.  15) I know thy works, that thou art cold nor hot; I would thou wert cold lot hot.  16) So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spew thee out of my mouth.  19) As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent.  20) Behold I stand at the door and knock; if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him and he with me.  21) To him that overcometh, I will grant to sit with me in mu throne, even as I also overcame, and am set down with my father in his throne”.

      Wow! I mean if this isn’t Jesus giving me my answer, I seriously don’t know what is! I meditated on these scriptures and prayed with diligence and supplication, a long time before I even wrote this. Being a “Christian means that we are to be Christ like. We are supposed to have the minds of Christ, and act accordingly.

      An extremely and imperative thing to remember is, people are always watching us, to make sure that we are behaving as Christians, are meant to. I know I’m not perfect. In fact, I’m very far from it, but God’s not finished with me yet. He’s molding and making me into the Godly, Psalms 31 woman, that I was always meant to be. I’m still learing how to please Him, and how to serve My Lord Jesus Christ. Everyday I pray for His guidance and heavenly directions on what to do, and also what not to do, in my life. Please pray that He will anoint me, so that I may continue to write beautifully, and make a positive impact on people’s lives!

Written by: Samantha Britt (Sassy Sammi) on 07/23/15. All Copyrights Reserved.

I’ll Be The One

                                 I’ll Be The One

Hold me in your arms, and tell me that you love me, once again.
You know you’re more than just my lover, you’re my very best friend.
It amazes me to think about how much we’ve been through, together.
We’ve held each others hand, through all the crazy storms and weather.
The truth is, I always knew we were meant to be.
It’s just as important for you to feel and see.
I’ll submit to you like I’m supposed to, after we become one. 
That’s the way it’s supposed to be, you know, once it’s all said and done.
I know we’ll have hard times, but it will be okay.
We always know we have each other, at the end of every day.
I’ll be the shoulder for you to lay your head on.
I’ll be the voice speaking to you, at the other end of the phone.
It will be my lips you kiss, when you walk in the door.
It will be my ears you whisper in, when you tell me you want more.
It will be my arms that hold you close, every night.
It will be my face you see, when you look in the light.
I’ll be the one you lay with, and wrap your arms around.
Lastly, I’ll be the one you’ve looked your whole life for and finally found.

Written by: Samantha Britt (Sassy Sammi)
On 07/21/15.
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I Miss You

                                     I Miss You

Every time I look up and see a rainbow, I think of you. 
What can I say, you turn all my gray skies blue.
It helps to remember all of the precious moments we shared.
If I felt no one was listening, you always showed me you cared.
It breaks my heart when I realize you’re not here anymore.
I secretly wait patiently for you to bust through my door.
Don’t tell anyone or they may have me locked up.
As if I were a neglected and abandoned, caged pup.
No one ever told me it would hurt like this.
Or instead of making new memories, I’d be longing for the ones I miss.
For now I must keep reminding myself that you’re never coming back.
To live my life and show you I’ve excelled where I use to lack.
I’m gonna make you so proud of me Mama, it’s true.
I’ll write morning, noon and night, without a break, if I have to.
I guess what I’m trying to say, in a round about way is that I miss you every single second of every single day.

Written by: Samantha Britt (Sassy Sammi)
On 07/20/15.
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I Want You To Know

                              I Want You To Know 
         I want you to know, I’d never hurt you in a million
                                               years.
        You’ve been here for me, through all the laughter and
                                            the tears.
        Please forgive me, if I get a little ill with you.
       Trust me when I tell you, that’s the last thing I want
                                                to do.
       You keep me in awe, how you diligently work so hard 
                                         to support us.     
       Though you may be in excruciating pain, you don’t
                                       complain or fuss.     
       Yes I’ll stand by my man, till the end of time.
       Weather we have thousands or only a dime.
       I love you with everything in me, and that’s no lie.
       You will remain my world forever, even after we die.

       Written by: Samantha Britt (Sassy Sammi)
       On 07/09/15
       All Copyrights Reserved.